"Got laid off this morning. Due to lack of work."
At first I was like, "Well, okay, we've done this unemployment thing before, so we can do it again."
I texted him back a couple of hours later:
"Did they give you any severance?" (Last go around, we got 3 months)
David replied,
"2 weeks severance"
I knew it wouldn't be much, if any, because he'd only worked for this company for 8 months. But honestly, I was like, "SHIT." That's not even enough to get us through the end of this month.
Sigh.
Man...this is really sounding like deja' vu, isn't it? ALL OVER AGAIN!
For the first 2 days, I cried...more than I'd like to admit. I wasn't mad at David, or God, or anyone else. I was just sad. And scared. Still am. I really, really don't know why this is God's plan for us. I really thought 6 months of unemployment last year was gut-wrenching enough. Sure...we made it through, but we are still taking the financial hit, and David is still busting his butt going to school part time so he can sit for his first CPA exam in August. The study materials alone for the test cost $800. Each test cost $250...assuming you pass it the first time. If not, you gotta retake it, and that costs ANOTHER $250.
See what I mean? So getting ahead right now in terms of dollars and cents. Not happening folks.
Ya'll...this sucks. I ain't gonna lie. This is real, this is me not pulling any punches here. THIS SUCKS.
I had 4 BFF's take me out to breakfast Tuesday morning. We met up for daily Mass first (I really, really needed that!), and then we sat outside at the Black Walnut Cafe, ate, and they let me pour out all my fears and worries.
I really, really needed that too. Thank you Lord for rock solid friendships.
By the time I got back home, I had sorta formed a mental plan. I realized I couldn't let this get me down. I honestly was depressed most of last summer, and I knew I couldn't fall into that pit of despair. 'Cause it's not fun, and it sure isn't pretty, let me tell you.
I have to look, once again, at how Jesus is helping us carry this cross, NOT at how awful and heavy it is. I have to pray, pray again, and then pray even more. My friends promised to start a novena to St. Joseph for us, so I started one too. I know some days will be harder than others. So on those days, I need to ask for help to make this cross more bearable. While I can't say I'm looking forward to the weeks, and months ahead, God has NOT forsaken us. I pray my faith will remain unshaken, confident in His love and mercy, and that He WILL provide.
If you're reading this, please pray for us. Please pray all of David's hard work over the past year has not been in vain. Please pray that someone will see that he has excellent credentials, great work experience, is CMA certified, and will hire him...quickly.
St. Joseph, patron saint of families, pray for us.
St. Cajetan, patron saint of the unemployed, pray for us.
JESUS, WE TRUST IN YOU!
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