We are expecting a baby. I honestly thought we were done, but God had a different plan. And after a week of...well...quiet panic, I went to Adoration. And Reconcilation. I told God, "I'm not sure I can do this." He said, "Yes, you can. All you have to do is love this baby, and everything else will work itself out."
I took a deep breath, and said, "Okay Lord, I trust you."
I had my first doctor's appointment at 9 weeks. Here's our first peek at our new little one!
Yes, I had a garage sale last year and sold nearly all our baby things. I still have the crib and changing table, the cradle, one pair of maternity pants that I coudn't bear to part with, the baby sling, and one box of baby clothes (boy and girl things). That's it.
I really believe God is still trying to cure me, or at least tame my tendency to be a perfectionist. This baby is going to be a tiebreaker! Rebecca and Christina are already praying for a little sister. Joshua said 2 sisters were enough. :-) Gabriel is too little to have an opinion. Thank goodness for that!
So I've been directing my troops from the couch, choking down small meals, gagging in between, napping every day, and popping TUMS like candy. That about sums up my days.
Thankfully, I am starting to feel better. I've had 4 "good" days in a row, and tonight is the first night I haven't gone to bed 30 seconds after the kids.
Before I go, I have to say one more thing.
I love my husband more that ever before. When I found out I was pregnant, he calmed my fears, and right away, insisted that I take it easy. He would come home, see me curled up in bed, not even able to talk, and he's go into Mr. Mom mode. David had no qualms about making dinner, cleaning up (with help from the kids), giving baths, doling out other chores, and putting the kids to bed every night. And he did all of it, without a single complaint. Seriously...not one.
And...every morning, he'd ask me what I'd want for breakfast (usually a piece of toast and juice), and he would bring it to me before leaving for work. Breakfast in bed...yeah, I had to choke it down, but it really saved me. Talk about a new appreciation for my other, better half. Sigh...I hope I can make him a great steak dinner when I feel better. I love you David!
All right, I am off to bed. Right now, we are on our vacation, 2 weeks on the road, final destination the 2010 CCL Convention in Green Lake Wisconsin, with stops in Springfield, MO, St. Louis, Chicago, and Racine, WI. I did cave and ask my OB/GYN for some medication, because I couldn't deal with the nausea AND the motion sickness I always get when I'm in the car for more than 2 hours. It did help, but I actually haven't had to take it the past few days. I'm really hoping I'm over the hump!
